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Random Thoughts


Just Wondering what if my mom would have seen writing me?Would she be happy?Or she would have called it a waste of time?Writing is still fine..But what about writing Love stories?She would have encouraged me? Or Scolded?

I try a lot to speak to her but photographs don’t respond.

But still what I would say is today I can write coz she gave birth to a writer, to a thinker.

Well I can’t answer this only She can!

One song from the movie “Ti sadhya Kay karte” which was probably used for a love story. But here I am dedicating it to my mom.

Kitida Navyane Tula athavave dolyatle Pani Navyane bahave

Translation

Everytime when I think of you in a new way Tears roll down my eyes in a new way…

     

                   From your loving daughter

                 ~ Ayesha Ghadigaonkar

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LIFE


Life my favourite word.I thought Life was about enjoying every moment we live..Smiling, Laughing, Dancing and also sadness. But sadly I realised this is not Life.
Recently I saw a talk by “Manisha Koirala”And I totally agree to what she said..“Life happens when we are Busy making other plans

Indeed I was making some plans regarding my career.Regarding some materialistic things and the real life happened to me..

Now my Life has brought me to a stage where I fear to smile, I can’t even cry, I fear of Happiness..I fear of Living..

I don’t smile like before coz I think If I smile My life will make 4 times..It’s better I stay Quiet.

Last year I left my studies though there were two reasons for that and I went up for a job thinking I”ll continue next year.And I was all set to continue with my studies this year.But my destiny played a game and I think this time also I won’t be able to continue..

Kis Mukaam par laa Diya Ae Zindagi ab hasne se pehle bhi das bar sochungi ki ek hasi ka hisaab kitne ansuon see Chukana padega..Usse accha hum Hase hi Na….!!!

                   ~ Ayesha Ghadigaonkar

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The Fault in my Stars⭐⭐⭐⭐


After a long time I took to writing.No sooner did I realised I might have lost the sparkle.After sitting and thinking for 1 hour I wrote few things and I backspaced them.Realising this is not the way I write.I have lost my sparkle.My skills.My writing Skills.The most difficult phase of my life..Before this phase came there was a phase where I said “This is the most beautiful phase of my Life”And no sooner did the beautiful phase got converted in to the worst phase.The problem lies here whenever I feel I am happy something happens with takes the happiness away and again I am repeating “I FEAR OF HAPPINESS“I am at a phase where I actually think twice before being happy.Coz it has happened many a times..I smile but it’s just a face.I just wish this dark phase goes away early ..

Would just say one thing….

This time it’s Never ending fear…I hate to be happy.

The Fault in My Stars🌟

~ Ayesha Ghadigaonkar

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THE FAULT IN MY STARS 🌟


Title Credit:- The Fault in My Stars. 

Only the Title is being related to John Green’s Book.

Stars a beautiful thing to Look on But what if there is a Fault in your stars?

Aarohi’s (POV)

Today I don’t know what to write.Just penning down my emotions.Life my favourite and yes I am a Lover of Life..I love to Live,love to eat, love to enjoy.My Life was Good.Though few ups and downs but it was Good.Happy I was..But always I believed rather I feared of one thing “Happiness I know happiness is not a thing to be feared of.Who fears of Happiness?But I do.Yes I fear of Happiness coz Whenever my Life had given me Happiness, whenever it seems perfect and I am just happy with everything something happens which leaves me stunned.

My Current phase of Life I defined as the best phase of Life.Everything was just perfect.I was doing well in my Job, no other probs.A stage of Life which everyone desires.Happiest stage.Little did I know I was forgetting If happiness is coming from all side.Something is wrong the next moment .And yes I was right it is wrong .    

At this stage Everything just changed with in a moment.I can see my dreams clearly dying,My Career Ending.Only one thing is running around my mind.Currently Dreams and Career are Secondary.Just left hopes for any dreams or career.Now I have to Struggle a Different Battle..And yes now I fear a lot.

The Fault In My Stars 🌟…….

Sitaron k age jahan aur bhi Zindagi Mai abhi imtihaan aur bhi Hai…

Its Nothing Just a Fault in My stars..

                    ~ Ayesha Ghadigaonkar