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LETTERS TO MY MOM


AROHI’S ( POINT OF VIEW)

I think I have finally chosen what I should do? All this while I was asking you.. But how could I forget You had a Single dream for me and I have end number of dreams.. After I lost you and after my 12th I began the journey of fulfilling your dreams but I was  guided  wrong someone told me if you choose this course you will have ample amount of time to study to fulfill your mom’s dream and that’s how I landed there and that was the only reason I joined it.. But I didn’t found time to study.. Ok I said I’ll study for the course which I had chosen now.. I studied a Bit very casually just expected a first class But I was amazed to see the results I got above 70% and stood first in the class…Than I started studying seriously to maintain the record and I started involving myself.. Within this period many other dream developed.. Few are small and few are Big but they are too many.. I developed interest in writing.. And somewhere between fulfilling so many dreams I forgot Your Only single dream.. That’s a quite Big one mom.. Currently I am not capable of it but I will give a try wholeheartedly but I can’t assure you.. I was unable to do it within these 3 years coz I didn’t had time but Now I can manage and….

“No Doubt my destiny has brought me to the same place from where it began”

“3 saal pehle jaha se shuru kiya tha aj fir taqdir ne vaha laake khada kar diya”

I have many friends to share things but I prefer not to express my weakness or problems to anyone.. I feel it better to write it out here Neither I know anyone nor do people know me and the ones who know me they will read it only when I send them a link and which I will never send.. Well I will stop writing these articles coz I catch Cold easily.. Anyway that’s it for today..  I would like to dedicate a line for you  from a  Song  from our favorite serial and
of course the one which you watched and dreamed…

“Tumne jo dekhe sapne suhane un sapnon ko apna banane”

I will try to reach somewhere nearby at least…

Your’ s Loving Daughter,

~Ayesha Ghadigaonkar

 

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LETTERS TO MY MOM….


Arohi’s (POV)

Lost in to this Journey of life..                        I look up for you.                                              Though I didn’t find You But I still hope  to See you again..

3 years Back I Lost You..Lost You Forever..(2012) the worst year of my life..The Day you left me My Life transformed Completely..I lost myself..I became different..Returning to Home used to Kill me..So I preferred to stay out..From a Bright student I turned in to an averager..It was the time when I was in my teenage years and I needed someone to speak..I wanted to speak a lot but I waited and now itz a Lifelong wait..The Day you left me..My friends said “Don’t worry about studies you missed we are there” I said for whom should I study Now..I lost my Interest in Studies and Yes I got the results of it My Class 12th result went down..Dad was disappointed..Now there was a time to choose a Career..I couldn’t make decisions in My life..That was very difficult..So I asked U “What Should I choose? You didn’t responded..I completemy Lost faith in God “I prayed,prayed and prayed everywhere and anywhere but he didn’t listen” But later somehow I again started believing in God..Coz He is there but somewhere still even If I pray I don’t ask For anything…                

 The Day when I lost you Last words which I heard at 5.30 pm” I am fine not feeling well will speak later” and that later has not came yet..”Everyone said You called me You wanted to speak to me something “Till the time we could meet You left us..I still regret For not being there with You at Your last moments..      Few months Back I was at that Place where I saw You For the last time..It was so difficult to be there..I usually get Dreams Of You trying to speak something to me But You leave Before You speak.Those 3 years have been Difficult without  You..Now I am happy with whatever I do..But still Confused..I could make out What you wished to say was might be regarding What’s your wish to see me??

“I am asking You since 3 years You didn’t responded so I left it on my destiny and Now again the same time and I wish You to respond. Might be You try to respond But either I wake Up or You Leave..Whatever you say I will leave aside everything and Do It”

When You was there I was just the Opposite for You..But I don’t know how and when I grown up to be like You.           People say You Look like Your Mom and You speak like her too..During this year Diwali One of our Neighbour said “You exactly Fill Colours in Rangolis like Your Mom used to Fill it..Sometimes I Cook Like You..And of course My never ending Anger and The Stubborn behaviour..

“I blindly trust my Destiny and just Close my eyes and Walk..And Itz again time to Trust my Destiny and God..”

I know I am aggressive ..I take decisions mere out of anger..But still they proved to be Good..

“Have faith in Your Destiny and Your Destiny will design the Best Possible Journey for You”-ayesha Ghadigaonkar

I still believe  in this quote…

Your’s Lovingly Girl,

                  ~ Ayesha Ghadigaonkar